Merry Christmas...

Hi folks...

How's the Christmas treating you people...

It's fun for me...

All I did was just be with my loved one...

Had a candlelight dinner and some cuddling in front of the TV...

It's all sweet...

We had Turkey and some Pork...

And some alcohol... Wonderful indeed, in my dreams... lol...

Christmas, in my opinion is a time to spend with family and friends and of course loved ones included... provided you have a loved one...

I have no regrets spending my time at home with family, compared to sitting in front of my com in my room... Being obsessed over some crazy actor... lol... I'm not that pathetic... I think...

Oh well... dinner was wonderful... the prize exchanging was of course wonderful too...

Receiving card is even more wonderful... but not when the card received is not the person you intend it from... But... oh well, it's the thoughts that count... I guess...

Ho ho ho, Merry Christmas... ^^

To love and be loved...

Something has been going through my head just now...

I thought back, about my life...

how I have always been looking for guys,

how I somehow click better with guys than with girls...

I was browsing my phone last night and three quarter of my messages were from guys...

And they are my best friends...

I thought of last year, thought of last last year, thought about 5 years ago...

At 15 I liked this guy whom I could see the future with...

And then I ruin it...

Now, I think I'm ready... ready to go through that again... To feel the love again...

Not lust, not desire, not infatuation... but truly to love and to be loved...

Sometimes, if you haven't been through shit, you won't know how to value the people around you...

Jerks are all around, gems are all around too...

All you have to do is to search in the dirt, to find a gem that suits you...

Merry Christmas... ^^

Missed the bus...

I wanted to catch the bus, waited to long contemplating whether to go on it or not...
Now the bus has left...

It was between hop onto it for a misadventure not knowing what to expect or to make a decision based on whether I feel like going or not...

Like he once said, "not making a decision is also making a decision"...

Time waits for no one... I guess my decision was made long before I knew it...

No regrets?

At this times, all songs have meanings... Sigh...

THE ONE???

How do we know if whoever we find will be our one and only true love, THE ONE!!!

It is something we will never know I guess... Just a risk we have to take...

Read this which I got from http://pleasefindthis.blogspot.com/

"This is the one." The universe assures me from behind the counter.

"But I thought you said the last one was the one." I reply.

"No." Says the universe. "I sold you that one so you would know that this, this is the one."

"Is there another one?" I ask the universe.

"I can't tell you." They reply. "It'd ruin the surprise."

Like they said, life is like a box of chocolate... No one knows what we are going to experience next...

Adiouz

Confession of the Love Bug

Have you ever met a guy who would do almost anything to get your attention???

Any normal girl would be touched to meet that kind of guy...

A guy who holds onto a crush, even after he thought he has no chances,

A guy who makes a promise to himself to be there for the girl whenever she needs him...

And the girl stupidly did not realize anything and when she realized it, she had to have the cheek to not know how to react...

She likes the guy, but... she's afraid...

Afraid of the future, afraid of the present, afraid of people, afraid of commitment...

When the last time she meets him, she had to break his heart...

she doesn't want him to keep thinking of her... as she does not feel that she's worth it...

she still doesn't...

But... for a guy who brings a girl to the beach early in the morn,

puts up with all her nonsense, how is a girl not to feel touched and happy...

But good things never last...

I miss him... Sigh...

Love Bug Strike Infinity

I'm in love again...
I'm definitely not on the lookout for true love...
I'm the Love Bug... and the love bug have visited me again...

But this time, it's visit was short and simple...
But yet... left a mark...
All I can do is to watch at the sidelines while he goes about with his stuff...
Have to keep my cool, not show my feelings on my face...
Be stoned face... be emotionless while inside you are craving for him...
Craving for him to tell me what his problems, help him solve his problems...
Help him in all that he needs... Be by his side to support him...

But... I can't do any of that...
All I can do is to be rude, and pretend like he don't mean a thing to me when he means the world to me...
I'm always thinking about him... Thinking about what I can do that can help him in any way...
I know he's upset about some things that happen around, but I can't do anything...
All I could do was to buy him a early birthday present which I hope could cheer him up a little...
Though I doubt as much...
But what can I do... I want to be that Angel protecting him from the pain he is going through...
But I'm just a thorn in his spine...
I'm just better off not around him...

That's the best I can do... and I try oh so hard to not think bout him...
But, the love bug just won't leave me alone...
He won't leave till I have suffered enough...

Dear lord...
My heart aches everytime I see him in pain... Sigh...

boys over flowers

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ujck0zL_x_g&feature=related

i just wish for true love, pure love.

sincerely...

Want to know more bout love?

I'm not in love anymore... Funny...
I feel like a ball, being thrown from hand to hand...
And now, in the hands of someone who doesn't want to catch the ball...
The ball is deem to fall onto the ground...
It actually has fallen to the ground...
Now waiting in the cold, shivering waiting for warm hands to pick it up again...

Sigh...

Love

Feeling of love, is something that's hard to say...
Once upon I was in love, I maybe still in love... but it was an unreciprocated one...
For this love, I have done stupid things, shed tears, as well as accept unreasonable requests...

You know the feeling of seeing this really interesting person and saying to yourself, "Oh, gosh... This person exists". This person whom you have not known for long, but yet you feel like you can trust him with your heart... This person whom have stolen your heart as well as your feelings...
When the person is near you, you feel your heart beating tremendously fast as though you have ran miles on a track mill, butterflies in your tummy fluttering and your face blushing when he/she teases you and all this is just out of your control... That's called infatuation, the beginning of how love is formed... During this period of time, all you can think of is that person... And all you can say is about that person... It can't be controlled... Your body suddenly seems to have a mind of it's own... Lying on the bed at night, all you can think is what is he/she doing? as well as how was his/her day?

That's all I went through, all those adrenalin rush, made me have mood swings as quick as a blink of an eye, happy one moment, depressed the next, my emotions were controlled by this very one person...

There were sweet times, as well as times when I know, it's not meant to be...

Till now, this though can still bring tears to my eyes...
Adious...

Looks???

Have you ever dressed up nicely, seductively, or maybe just nicer than usual...
Hoping and wishing to meet him/her?

Knowing that the chances of meeting him/her is so slim that there is barely a chance but still hoping and wishing...
There were people oogling at you...
But... not the person you wish for...

A person that would go, you look nice today...
I'm sure if you were to bend down, there would be many guys staring at your ass...

Or perhaps... if you were to take out your shirt, girls will be drooling...

Compliments which from the person you like will make your day and from friends will make you happy...
There's a difference...

So, like any other day...
I was nice... but no one was there to look...
Makes me wonder if there is a reason for me to look nice... :)

A person in love...

A person in love will hang on to every word said my the person they love...
Hold on to their promises,
Dreaming of the unknown future,
And all they think of is the person they love...

Whether the person they love, is right or wrong,
when there's a want, there's a way...

No matter what people say,
It will all fall onto deaf ears...
As the person is too blinded by love...

Love, can be dangerous...
And I enjoy the danger of it...

As love makes me feel alive...

Loving someone is definitely not easy...

Each day, you wish for that person to be happy...
You wish you can make the person happy...
But... you know, the person that can make him/her smile is another person...
And to make him/her smile because of you takes a lot of effort...

Because of this, all you can do is to be happy that there is this other person to be the sun and moon of his/her life...
Even though you aren't the sun and moon, you know you can be the shadow wishing him/her happiness wherever he/she goes...

Cheat...

Earlier today, I overheard a guy telling his friend...

"I cheated on the girl I love and admire just because I wanted to fuck another girl..."

That was exactly what I heard...
And I thought to myself... He obviously does not love the girl that much if he could cheat on her...

The Unexplainable...

A person in love, can't sometimes explain the things they are doing...
It just comes to them whether they know it or not...
Jealousy comes hand in hand with love...
But trust plays an important role to keep jealousy away...

Sometimes, we just want to have fun cause that's what makes both parties happy...
Sometimes, we want to please our other halves and sometimes, we are angry cause they didn't notice the small small signs we are signaling to them...
Either way, to be in love is a risk each person in this world is taking...
And a huge risk...

For me, at my stage in life...
All I want is for the people I cherish to remember me...
Remember me for who I am and please I beg you...
Don't forget me... Cause I know I won't forget you as you have brought to me memories that I will cherish for a life time...

You may not be sweet, you may not be made of honey...
But I like you the way you are...
I wish I will be able to meet someone as special as you...

I will miss you...

Belated Valentine's Dinner???

Hi...

I had a dinner with my friend last night...
It started with me ranting about my loneliness on V-day and he asked if I would like to go for dinner with him...
So, I agreed...

It was like any normal friendly dinner...
We had it at Lynn's in SS15... The atmosphere there was pretty romantic...
But we are just friends ok...

Inside, love songs were played on and on...
There was a stalk of rose on the table and the price of food was reasonable...

During dinner, he had a small cheese cake with his set and he fed me...
Awww... I'm touched...
At the same time, I'm wondering am I telling him the wrong message?
Cause I am not exactly available for a relationship...
And I do not hope to lead him on...

Anyway... That's all...
Adious...

What love is all about

Love is all the little little things you do just to make the other person happy...
It doesn't matter what it is... It's always the thought that counts...

It can be a birthday present of a key chain with both your pictures engraved onto it...
Or perhaps, dressing up a little so that the guy will think to himself... I'm so lucky to have such a pretty Lil thing for my gf.
Or so that the bf can't get his hands off you as he is so seduced... hahahaha...

But best of all is that love can do that... Love can control the beat of the heart
Love keeps a small part of the brain filled with the person you love...
And if you truly love the person, that small part of the brain can only be filled with one person...
And that one person is the person who manages to control your heart as you control his or hers...

Love is that amazing...
If everyone has love...
Everyday would be Valentine's

Installing Love

I came across an interesting article from this blog, http://www.my-little-heroes.blogspot.com/2009/02/happy-valentines-day-installing-love.html, read it... It's nice...

Installing LOVE

Tech Support: Hi, how can I help you?

Customer: Well, after much consideration, I've decided to install LOVE. Can you guide me through the process?

Tech Support: Yes, I can help you. Are you ready to proceed?

Customer: Well, I'm not a very technical person, but I think I'm ready. What do I do first?

Tech Support: The first step is to open your Heart. Have you located your Heart?

Customer: Yes, but there are several other programs running now. Is it okay to install LOVE while they are running?

Tech Support: What programs are running?

Customer: Let's see...I have Past Hurt, Low Self-Esteem, Grudge and Resentment running at the moment.

Tech Support: Don't worry. LOVE will gradually erase Past Hurt from your current operating system. It may remain in your permanent memory, but it will no longer disrupt other programs. LOVE will override Low Self-Esteem with a module of its own called High Self-Esteem. However, you'll have to turn off Grudge and Resentment. Those two will prevent LOVE from being properly installed. Can you turn those off?

Customer: I don't know how to turn them off. Can you tell me how?

Tech Support: With pleasure. Go to your start menu and invoke Forgiveness. Do this as many times as necessary until Grudge and Resentment have been completely erased.

Customer: Okay, done! LOVE has started to install itself. Is it normal?

Tech Support: Yes, but remember that you only have the base program. You need to begin connecting to other Hearts in order to get the upgrades.

Customer: Oops, I have an error message already. It says, "Error - Program not running on external components." What should I do?

Tech Support: Don't worry. It means that LOVE program is set up to run on Internal Hearts, but has not yet been run on your Heart. In non-technical terms, it simply means you have to love yourself first before you can love others.

Customer: So, what should I do?

Tech Support: Pull down Self-Acceptance, then click on the following files: Forgive Self, Realise your Worth, and Acknowledge your Limitations.

Customer: Okay, done.

Tech Support: Now, copy them to the "My Heart" directory. The system will override any conflicting and begin patching faulty programming. Also, you need to delete Verbose Self-Criticism from all directories and empty your Recycle Bin to make sure that it's gone forever.

Customer: Got it. Hey, my Heart is filling up with new files. Smile is playing on my monitor, Peace and Contentment are copying themselves all over in my Heart. Is this normal?

Tech Support: Sometimes. For others, it takes a while. However, everything gets it at a proper time eventually. So, LOVE is installed and running. One more thing before we hang up. LOVE is Freeware. Make sure to give it and its various modules to everyone you meet. They will in turn share it with others and return some cool ones back to you.

Valentine's Day

Hi,
I'm here to continue the posting of my dear friend alsy...

And my first post would be on Valentine's Day...
It would be such a pity, that a blog about love has no Valentine's Day in it.

Valentine's Day, a day for Love or publicized love.
It would of course be extremely romantic if a girl receives a bouquet of roses of perhaps 99 stalks?
It's actually the thought that matters... You know what would be better?
It would be if all the roses were hand made... Boy, would that be sweet...


In my dream, on Valentine's Day, I receive a bouquet of roses, with it there's a card saying from anonymous... And instructions on where to meet this anonymous...
And when I meet him, I will be swept of my feet as I have never seen a more good-looking guy that they guy standing in front of me...
He will whisper sweet words into my ear as I giggle softly...
And then we will have a romantic candle-light dinner cooked by him...
We will have some red wine to go with the wonderful a bit burned food...
And then after dinner, we'll sit in the couch entwined together and share a kiss, a long arousing kiss...
After that, it would be late and I would need to go home...
Before my parents start looking for me...

Sweet? That's a dream...

But anyway, love is the sweetest thing that can happen to anyone...
Love makes a person's heart beat faster, hands sweat, nervousness, hyperness, as well as blushing on the face.
It gives good blood circulation...
I need love...
I have real bad blood circulation...

But normal guys don't appeal to me...
What I need is a guy to sweep me of my feet, a guy who knows what Love is...
And make me feel it, as I have made him felt it...

Awww... I'm sweet ain't I...

Adious...

I find that this blog has defeated it's purpose of being here...
And me, as the blogger has nothing much to say bout the topic Love,
as to tell the truth... I'm no expert...

And therefore, to whoever who ever read this blog before...
This is to inform u...

Byez

I used to hear people telling me stories...
I like to read stories...
I had and have the opportunity to experience it...
Friends are telling me to enjoy myself...
Cause it's all there is to it...
Till it get's boring...

There is something different...
Something comfortable, yet warm...
I don't know how to describe it...
As I have yet to explore it...

I have a hunch...
That it might not be a pleasant exploration all the way...
But I have fallen too deep into the pothole, to not go on further...

6 months, and that's all I have...
After that, who knows what will happen...

Adious

I just came across a blog...
A blog which a girl at the young age of 19 is falling in love with attached men and the things she has to go through...
Love... A weird thing...

Outsiders looking at a 3 way relation always think the third party as the relationship-breaker
But have they ever thought, that perhaps... All she did was fell for forbidden love...
Or perhaps... She is just too in love that she can't pull herself from it...

Why do I feel like I understand her...
She is like the imagination of things that might have been if I went for it...
Or perhaps I am thinking too much...
Or perhaps... I am just envying her of things I know that I will not have... the scars, the pleasure, the love, the care and the pain...

Adiouus..