To love and be loved...

Something has been going through my head just now...

I thought back, about my life...

how I have always been looking for guys,

how I somehow click better with guys than with girls...

I was browsing my phone last night and three quarter of my messages were from guys...

And they are my best friends...

I thought of last year, thought of last last year, thought about 5 years ago...

At 15 I liked this guy whom I could see the future with...

And then I ruin it...

Now, I think I'm ready... ready to go through that again... To feel the love again...

Not lust, not desire, not infatuation... but truly to love and to be loved...

Sometimes, if you haven't been through shit, you won't know how to value the people around you...

Jerks are all around, gems are all around too...

All you have to do is to search in the dirt, to find a gem that suits you...

Merry Christmas... ^^