Love Bug Strike Infinity

I'm in love again...
I'm definitely not on the lookout for true love...
I'm the Love Bug... and the love bug have visited me again...

But this time, it's visit was short and simple...
But yet... left a mark...
All I can do is to watch at the sidelines while he goes about with his stuff...
Have to keep my cool, not show my feelings on my face...
Be stoned face... be emotionless while inside you are craving for him...
Craving for him to tell me what his problems, help him solve his problems...
Help him in all that he needs... Be by his side to support him...

But... I can't do any of that...
All I can do is to be rude, and pretend like he don't mean a thing to me when he means the world to me...
I'm always thinking about him... Thinking about what I can do that can help him in any way...
I know he's upset about some things that happen around, but I can't do anything...
All I could do was to buy him a early birthday present which I hope could cheer him up a little...
Though I doubt as much...
But what can I do... I want to be that Angel protecting him from the pain he is going through...
But I'm just a thorn in his spine...
I'm just better off not around him...

That's the best I can do... and I try oh so hard to not think bout him...
But, the love bug just won't leave me alone...
He won't leave till I have suffered enough...

Dear lord...
My heart aches everytime I see him in pain... Sigh...